second day.

what's with my published time ? -.-

yesterday post was typed in the midnight but it shows morning , aih nevermind that's not important.

had actually not planned to reply him for the whole day.

But as usual , I can't stand for a day that there's no message from him,

or not to send him a message. SIGH.

Today was the last day to work at my mum's kindi. I would have more free time next week onwards.

But , he's not there and if he's there he don't have the time to accompany me so.

I MISS HIM. I can only tell this to myself. He would never ever know anymore.

Was playing Facebook , and saw something ridiculous.

He told me that he was home yesterday nigt ,

but he went out with his friends. And the girl.

Beers , sisha , drunk photos. WTH ?

I held my tears , and it's really really hard to do so. But I was really really sad.

He doesn't think of posting this photos will make me to think more.

And it cuts. hurt so much so much. It was just too much.

And I just bring out the word , BREAKUP.

In the afternoon , after I've fetched my mum to work , I planned to meet him for lunch.

But , there's no reply anymore. He didn't tell me where he is.

So I went to find Chian and Michelle. And... I saw his car.

I think there's no more feeling from him towards me cause he wouldn't ignore me like that before.

Or he really gave up on me.

Just that I'm the one who keep holding back and irritating him.

Heart broke , broke , broke , broke BROKE.

Totally blue. for the whole day and there's still no message !

Imma so die. I'm dreaming when i'm driving , talking , everything in my mind was just HIM.

we've been through so many fights and argues.

We broke up , we be together. And it happens for a few times.

I knew that both of us are heartbroken.

But sometimes argue should've help couples to move on , right ?

Argument will make us to see better option.

I knew that I've did something wrong before. I knew that.

Perhaps this is the time for me to be more mature !

And what I need from him is patience and time :'(

I would really spend my coming days with just only one guy , cause I think he's worth it.

I wouldn't wanted another choice , since I've choose him.

One of our funniest photo ever.

I miss him. I miss our smile when we were together.

I miss

watching movie with him , that was the most amazing thing ever.

shopping with him , he'll always gives suprise.

eating with him , happiest moment ever.

swimming with him , enjoyable moment ever.

hugging him , sweetest thing ever.

having a nap with him , most comfortable sleep I could never ever get.

RAYMOND , I MISS YOU.

Without you , my life are getting away from the right track.

Everything goes off beat , goes to a wrong way.

I couldn't concentrate , couldn't focus.

But you're still out there living with your bunch of friends and the flirty girl happily.

Which after I saw those photos , I don't like them.

I bet he would talk to that how sensitive am I , how annoying am I.

But somehow , thanks them for being with him by that period.

Tears.

I think I've lost a lots of tear as I cried every night since that day onward.

Bringing and living with my swollen eyes on the next morning.

I still have to carry on.

I won't give up on him. I'll still try my best to convince and to touch him.

Was currently addicted to two songs , How Are You by Jay Chou,

A Thousand Years by Christina Perri.

And I'm doing those covers and will be up very soon I think.

The both songs reveal my current situation ALOT.

Gonna off to bed now , I hoped that there's nothing happen on the night later.

Don't think he'll see this since he didn't really cares about me now.

But this blog will be part of my memory and to jot down everything happened.

It's like a diary for us.

Good night raymond. wan an :) nguek <3